Fully Surrendered

I haven't written in a while.  There's been a lot of ups and a great deal of downs in my life.  If I took time to write all that God does for me or shows me in a day...I would burn up this blogging site.  

As my life unfolds in tiny, slow, bits of pain and beautiful ugly with a great mix of wonderful intimacy with Christ, I have realized that a life is not a life unless it is fully surrendered to God.  I have surrendered my life, my marriage, my husband, my family, my health, my skills, my finances, my everything to Him who is capable and willing to do what is best. 

I have told God that my life is for Him and that I want His will to be done.  What that looks like, I am uncertain except that "the plans are for good and not calamity" according to Jeremiah 29:11.  Whatever it looks like to live completely in God's will is  what I want my life to look like.   

As it stands-my marriage appears from a human viewpoint, to be over, my step kids act like I am a plague and the rest of my life is amazing.   I made the decision to move on and exit this marriage, leaving the unforgiving atmosphere of people that  seem to distant themselves from our Savior BUT God has made it clear that He has not told me to move.  Until God says move, this girl is staying in place.  He obviously has something huge planned for me.  I will not run ahead with my own plans.  

As I live out this messy life,  fully surrendered to Christ, I watch as God makes subtle moves using me in ways I never have thought He would.  Today I had a friend text me and say that testimony I gave during a women's Bible study brought a girl to a place of requesting prayer for her own life.  The friend continued with her seeing God using me in the lives of other women.  As they hear my story of broken, they begin to recognize their own need for Jesus.  

I challenge you tonight to fully surrender to God and watch His power flood your life and your circumstances.   The more you focus on Him, the less you focus on whatever life is handing out in hostility towards you.  When you seek His face...you find intimacy with Him that you could never realize without experiencing it for yourself.  I can tell you about what I've seen but until you see Him for yourself...life is just lifeless in comparison.  

God bless and prayers for you and your family!