"I opened to my lover but he was gone! My heart sank, I reached for him but could not find him anywhere. I called to him, but there was no reply. The night watchmen found me as they made their rounds. They beat and stripped off my veil, those watchmen on the walls. Make this promise, O women of Jerusalem-if you find my lover, tell him I am weak with love." Song of Songs 5:6-8 NLT
God trusted me with my husband and I let them both down. This scripture tells of the loss of passion between a husband and wife over time. I hate with my whole heart that I failed my husband but with ALL that is in me, heart and soul, I hate that I failed God.
My relationship with God is better now because of my failure. He uses our weakest moments to make us stronger in Him. Even though I don't have my earthly husband right now, God is my Heavenly Husband and comforts me and whispers that all will be okay.
In time, I pray that God will restore my marriage and the love my husband should feel for his wife. I trust God in EVERY aspect of my life and will wait on Him. If my husband chooses not to love me or trust me or even continue our marriage, I know God will still be there for me and keep me on solid ground.
We often put our faith in the wrong things or people. When we love someone more than we love God, we can get lost and fall. I put my faith in my husband for most of our marriage and he in me. We failed each other and we failed God.
Let me offer just a bit of advice from the lesson I've learned...
Always make God number one in your life, trusting Him in EVERY decision and your marriage will be so much stronger. When you start taking God for granted, you will start taking your spouse for granted. Life will become chaotic.
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