Well played God, well played

During the first 6 months of this year I argued with God over where I should be and what I should be doing.  I, in my mind, had it all worked out and planned perfectly.  I knew exactly what would work best for me. 

I did not want to be tied down to a job.  I told myself I wasn't good enough or confident enough to be in music ministry.  So, I retired from my job and fought back and forth over the music.  I would step up and play for a while.  Then I would get frustrated over not being what, in my mind, others expected.

Then by June of this year, God convicted me to step up and make a commitment to the music.  I finally gave in and started getting way too comfortable with it. By September I was proud of where I had come. Hahaha

In the latter part of September God said to me, not in words but through conviction in the heart, you are getting too big for your britches. 
He certainly knocked me down a notch and hurled me into a whale of a storm. 

I had to step down from the music and have found myself wondering if I need to get a job.  My plans, my confidence had led me to destruction.  

Well played God, well played!  He let me get comfortable in my own strength only to say, my strength wasn't good enough.  My plans weren't His.

Over the last 3 months, God has taught me that I am NOTHING without Him and His strength.  He has showed me that when I depend on myself, trust in my own abilities and have faith in the wrong one, I will fail. 

Keep your eyes on God and His plans.  All else will fall into place like a perfectly crafted puzzle.  I have found perfect peace in letting God guide each step.  It was very difficult to give up the control but so freeing when I did.

"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps."
Proverbs 16:9 NIV