Awake at midnight

Early in my current storm, I found myself awake at midnight over-thinking things and struggling with emotions that wouldn't settle.  I, all of a sudden, got this message in my head and on my heart.  I felt it had to be from the Holy Spirit.  I sat up and wrote it down.

As I was cleaning some cabinets this morning, I came across the journal I started in 2014 and continued writing in when this storm hit hard in September of 2016.  I have never been much on journaling but am so glad I am now. 

Anyway, I want to share what was on my heart that midnight as I sat, hurting in my bed.  If the dates are correct, it would have been written 3 days after the true storm hit.  It's not poetry or fancy stuff but God speaking to me when I needed a friend.

"It's midnight in my heart right now but I know dawn is just moments away.  God has my heart and He has my hand. For Him and Him alone I will take a stand.  I'll weather this storm with Him in control. No doubt, I'll be better for it and be able to give Him the glory. God is loving, merciful and forgiving. He will defeat the enemy for me.  I don't have to be the fighter in this fight. I don't have to be in darkness, even, at midnight."

I am not a writer and certainly not trying to be.  However, I knew it was important to write this down because I knew I would someday, today, look back at it and PRAISE God for giving me such peaceful thoughts as the darkness was trying to hide the light.  The enemy wants us to linger in hurt and guilt.  He wants our eyes focused on pain and sorrow. 

I have done a great deal of praying in my life, especially beginning the first part of 2016 but nothing like I started on September 23rd, 2016. 
I pray ALOT! I know without a doubt that I had prayed for peace in that dark midnight.  It was midnight in my soul feeling like life was too hard to handle.

This is just another story of God answering prayers. He put light in that dark moment. He gave me hope through my thoughts.  When the Holy Spirit lives in us, He shines through us-even in the dark of midnight.  God brought peace in a moment when I couldn't find any on my own.  He loves us so much and gives us what we need whether we deserve it or not. 

"Even the darkness is not dark to You, and the night is as bright as the day. Darkness and light are alike to You. " Psalm 139:12

Just a note...I am so glad that I journal.  There are so many treasured moments that God has blessed me with, I want to remember them all.